Broken Things
There really is so much that happens in a year. Grief never, ever, ever leaves a person even after years and therapy and even the goodness of God's grace. No, it does not leave but it does evolve. Sorrow still lies in the midst of joyous occasions knowing the person you love is ever present in your heart but there is a deeply felt loss of their physical presence leaving us with some very tangible longing. Wanting to feel the warmth of their hugs. Missing how it felt to share kisses and wishing your ears could audibly hear the sweet sound of their unique laughter. The kind you cannot contain inside you no matter how hard you try.
The past few years that have brought many losses of friends and students, mentors and teachers, even my friend's children. There were losses I anticipated and those that shocked me to the core. But if I could pinpoint the one biggest thing I've learned in all grief and the life I've chosen to push ahead in pursuit of, it is this:
Life can be so, so hard. There are times that it plain and simple sucks in fact. There are no perfect words to describe such loss nor adequate ones that bring comfort in a time of mourning. But there is a sense of bittersweet beauty in the giving and taking away. The invaluable lesson we can't seem to learn any other way is the true power of connection and genuine relationships.
We all live in this world with its vast diversity and the one thing that makes each of us no different than anyone else is that no one makes it out of here alive, nor completely whole. It is that each and every one of us are vulnerable whether we want to admit it or not.
We have the ability to love.
To lose.
To grieve.
To reach out.
To connect with others in their hour of blessing and in the moments of grief.
In celebration and in disappointment.
In the height of happiness, and the lowest points of dark mental battle.
We all have a choice. Life and love against all odds, are gifts but also choices. Even in your hour of need, give yourself and all that you have.
It seems we are all so scared of being hurt by others we forget that in the end life is short and pain does not last. Giving ourselves and the benefit of vulnerability is that it paves the way to humility, acceptance of self as well as others, and gives birth to a strength you've never known before.
Even in our loss, failure, and pain there is freedom. Freedom to move forward physically even if you don't want to emotionally. One foot in front of the other will eventually lead to healing but that step is the key!
Healthy hearts and minds don't just simply come and that first step is the launching point. You are what the world needs. What I need. You're a beautiful soul and don't you dare ever deprive us and yourself of everything you have to give. You matter. You have power. You bring joy and laughter. You inspire. Your love often saves lives in ways you'll never know. You're fiery and will take the world by storm with your beautiful soul and unique talents. But. Yes, there's a but.
You'll never fully know and step into your calling of sorts if fear has bound your feet.
Take the step even with shaking knees and rattled emotions if you must. But just do it. I promise you won't be disappointed!
The past few years that have brought many losses of friends and students, mentors and teachers, even my friend's children. There were losses I anticipated and those that shocked me to the core. But if I could pinpoint the one biggest thing I've learned in all grief and the life I've chosen to push ahead in pursuit of, it is this:
Life can be so, so hard. There are times that it plain and simple sucks in fact. There are no perfect words to describe such loss nor adequate ones that bring comfort in a time of mourning. But there is a sense of bittersweet beauty in the giving and taking away. The invaluable lesson we can't seem to learn any other way is the true power of connection and genuine relationships.
We all live in this world with its vast diversity and the one thing that makes each of us no different than anyone else is that no one makes it out of here alive, nor completely whole. It is that each and every one of us are vulnerable whether we want to admit it or not.
We have the ability to love.
To lose.
To grieve.
To reach out.
To connect with others in their hour of blessing and in the moments of grief.
In celebration and in disappointment.
In the height of happiness, and the lowest points of dark mental battle.
We all have a choice. Life and love against all odds, are gifts but also choices. Even in your hour of need, give yourself and all that you have.
It seems we are all so scared of being hurt by others we forget that in the end life is short and pain does not last. Giving ourselves and the benefit of vulnerability is that it paves the way to humility, acceptance of self as well as others, and gives birth to a strength you've never known before.
Even in our loss, failure, and pain there is freedom. Freedom to move forward physically even if you don't want to emotionally. One foot in front of the other will eventually lead to healing but that step is the key!
Healthy hearts and minds don't just simply come and that first step is the launching point. You are what the world needs. What I need. You're a beautiful soul and don't you dare ever deprive us and yourself of everything you have to give. You matter. You have power. You bring joy and laughter. You inspire. Your love often saves lives in ways you'll never know. You're fiery and will take the world by storm with your beautiful soul and unique talents. But. Yes, there's a but.
You'll never fully know and step into your calling of sorts if fear has bound your feet.
Take the step even with shaking knees and rattled emotions if you must. But just do it. I promise you won't be disappointed!
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